The feeling that you get when you leave someone you know is not right for you is different for everyone. For me it was liberating. Everything that happens from that moment on is a chance to redefine who you are and what you are. In fact every moment irrespective of your past is a new moment to redefine and find out who you are.
But the process of redefining who you are takes time. It takes time to let go of the destructive and negative thoughts and images that were in place for so long. It takes time to see what truly was right and what was wrong. Every moment is an opportunity to learn.
I would like to take a moment to explain why I’m starting this New Year feeling extremely grateful.
Last year for me was enormous. In fact the last 4 years have created such an evolution that I no longer recognize who I was back then. I’m grateful for that. I’m grateful for a lot of things actually. Let me explain:
4 years ago my daughter died and the year that followed was the worst year of my life.
3 years ago I realized that strength is part of who we all are and events help you to come face to face with it and embrace it.
2 years ago my son was born. His unquestionable lack of want and need to sleep at night, his dairy intolerance and his presence in my life caused some significant snowballs to roll.
9 months ago my marriage ended to a man whom I thought I knew but realized I didn’t.
It’s been very hard work.
A little while ago I decided I wanted to/needed to have more good days than bleurgh days. I thought perhaps it was the situation I found myself in at that time (divorce is majorly stressful) but as the days, weeks progressed I started to wonder if it was more to do with a state of mind.
Most days I find it difficult to fit everything I want and need to do into the time slots I have available for each activity. I have to work, clean the house and do the shopping etc. I also have about 10 books, great books, waiting for me to read them and I can hear them calling me all the time.
I want to spend many many hours practicing my yoga, improving, progressing and feeling great in my own skin. I want to spend time meditating and honing those skills, I want to spend more time blogging and creating recipes and food. I also want to spend as much time as I can creating memories and experiences with my son whilst I can and of course teaching my yoga classes too.
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